Once in a Lifetime

Toh memang di blog ini gue banyak menulis hal random yang nggak penting-penting amat. Tentang sesuatu yang tiba-tiba terlintas, atau malah sesuatu yang sudah lama hinggap di kepala. Yang lagi-lagi bukan hal penting. Lalu berbaur dengan lirik-lirik lagu yang mungkin relatable. Kemudian ditulis dengan bahasa Inggris bercampur dengan Bahasa Indonesia...

What did I say? Of course this is important! Very much. Maybe it's Nick Jonas and Priyanka Chopra's fault because few days ago I saw their video. The way Nick pulls Priyanka's chair closer to him; damn, I never feel so single in my life!

Well, no. Not really. It's been years in my head. Apa yang terjadi hari ini, hari-hari kemarin, dan bertahun-tahun lalu. About love. About how I feel about something called love. What I really want in my life. About guy. Man. Unrequited love. Looking for a man who loves me, and I love him back. Hope so.

Di antara calon yang tidak sesuai, seseorang di masa lalu, dan lust terhadap milik orang lain; I figure out that I don't want to just settle and trying to fit in. I get to a point in my life that no matter how bitter I am as a person, no matter how realistic I think I am, I still want something called love. There is still a desire in my heart to fall so deep into someone.

Maybe I am out of my mind. Perhaps I am crazy. Orang-orang yang pernah mengalami jatuh cinta sedalam itu (lalu patah hati) once said, if they could go back in time, they wish never felt in love in the first place. So, why I have this opposite weird desire...?

But for me... I still believe that love is something worth to take all risks.

Maybe it's love songs' fault. These shit kinda inspired me too much.

I am the one who usually don't do this some shit, but if Heaven sent this too-good-to-be-true man, well, I kinda, kinda want to meet your Mama on a Sunday and make a lotta love on a Monday.

Oh, boy, I'll be switching the positions for you. I'll be good in the kitchen and also in the bedroom. Nothing I wouldn't do for you.

Damn, this shit once happened!

I am a stubborn. I make my own decisions. So if there's a man who can wreck my plan, I will follow him wherever he strays. I am even begging for him to take my hand. Cause without him anywhere else is hollow. 

I am not afraid of anything. He can even show me the places where the others give him scars. I will wait for a signal and meet him after dark. 

I feel so superhuman. I feel like I can do anything. My only weakness is him. That's the moment he comes to me. I see through the me I used to be.

Him.

Him.

If it's him, I want him to the bone.

Yes, after all of this time, I am still a hopeless romantic.